MY Interstellar Experience

I'm trying to play the Interstellar Experience via a TikTok video. I tried to find the sheet music when I remembered I can't play while trying to read sheet music. Which reminded me of when I was six and was playing the piano and my teacher scolded me for playing by ear. BY EAR! That's a talent in its own right. and i just realized one more talent i had, squashed. then i bawled. i bawled so weirdly, it made my dogs bark in discomfort. I'm so done playing by the rules. i have about 10 years left in my life and i'm going to do everything the way i fucking want to. fuck everybody, fuck them and fuck YOU! And once again...my fucking dogs keep me here.