Here I go AGAIN!
My HCG notice came today. i signed for it so it shoudl be here tomorrow but my start date is not until Saturday anyway.
So saturday and sunday are my "load" days where i get to get irresponsibly hammered (as opposed to...?) and eat like a piggy with zero guilt.
I'm just as excited as i have been most other times i've done this. except the last time. i was not excited, not committed and i failed on the 12th day. THIS time i cannot fail. i just cannot fail.
i'm hopeful but i also know who i am. i'm hedonistic by nature and that's always my downfall. fun now; pay later. I HAVE to subdue that bitch to get to my goal. THEN i can, in moderation, let her back in.
i'm doing this round for 45 days, 21 days low-carb and then back to regular eating. oh my god...i feel like saying "who am i kidding?"
No. NO!
So saturday and sunday are my "load" days where i get to get irresponsibly hammered (as opposed to...?) and eat like a piggy with zero guilt.
I'm just as excited as i have been most other times i've done this. except the last time. i was not excited, not committed and i failed on the 12th day. THIS time i cannot fail. i just cannot fail.
i'm hopeful but i also know who i am. i'm hedonistic by nature and that's always my downfall. fun now; pay later. I HAVE to subdue that bitch to get to my goal. THEN i can, in moderation, let her back in.
i'm doing this round for 45 days, 21 days low-carb and then back to regular eating. oh my god...i feel like saying "who am i kidding?"
No. NO!
posted by Tanya Kristine at 10:22 PM
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